Before you notice it, you are already doubting this.
Not a warning.
An anticipatory correction of the system.
The alarm is still set.
And I already know you will think that matters.
But not yet.
The cup is on the table.
And I know you will try to use it as an anchor.
It doesn’t work here.
There is a crack in the wall.
And you are already trying to decide whether it was always there.
The answer arrives before the question.
It’s not that you don’t understand.
It’s that your understanding arrives after it has already been used.
I need to move my neck.
And you are already about to re-read that sentence.
You are doing it.
The feeling of “this is getting strange” arrives a second before you have it.
Not after.
The crack does not change.
What changes is how you arrive at it.
And you are already trying to verify that.
The cup is still cold.
And you are already searching for meaning in that.
Too late.
I start writing something.
And you are already expecting it to contradict itself.
It contradicts itself before you expect it.
The system knows.
Not because it observes you.
But because it predicts the order in which you will understand it.
The neck appears again.
And you already know the neck is not the point.
But you are still reading it.
You are wondering if this makes sense.
You were already doing that before reaching the sentence.
You are not losing control of reading.
Control has already been reordered.
The alarm is still set.
And you already know you will return to it.
Again.
The crack appears.
And you are already trying to remember when it started appearing.
You cannot fix it.
Because the order was corrected before you tried.
And now you are waiting for an explanation.
You were waiting for it before deciding to.
You will not get it here.
Because you have already been moved to the next sentence.
I have to move the neck there is no neck…
